A Grace To Grind

Well HELLO—- I haven’t sat in my writing a space in so long, it feels like unfamiliar territory. It’s 2018, so I’m sure you think I’m riding the new year wave and have decided to blog once more. But truth is, I haven’t thought about blogging and the change of the calendar didn’t alter that.

But I read a blog called Where I have I been  by my friend, Amber Underwood that challenged me. You see Amber answered the question on a personal level, but I believe the Holy Spirit asked me that same question. Not just as it  pertains to this blog, but truly as it related to my relationship with Christ.

Since I last posted, sooo much has happened!! I completed my penultimate semester of undergrad and it was CRAZY Busy. Here are a  few signature moments:I turned 21, joined a new church (Faith Chapel in Birmingham), completed 18.5 hours of coursework, secured a summer internship and pledged the sorority of my dreams!! (DELTA SIGMA THETA)

 I’m not bragging but God was moving!!! His favor was shown in so many areas of my life and I’m ashamed to say I don’t really think I’ve held up my end of the bargain. Yes, I consistently went to church and small group. I listened to worship music and sermons in my free time. But somewhere in my grind, I missed God. 

I missed the personal touch of Jesus that made my relationship with him mine, unique. I missed the desire to talk to him in my journal every day. I missed the discernment to sense the Holy Spirit speaking continuously. I missed setting aside time to read my Bible alone outside church consistently.  I missed the ah-ha moments where I received revelation and needed to share that teaching via this blog using the gift of writing.

All those gifts, talents, and activities I had previously discovered in my relationship with Jesus weren’t utilized consistently by me in this last season of my life. And I for one am determined to be better. Because God has been too good for me not to honor him.

Many of the blessings I spoke of which were manifest in the last season were honestly the result of prayers and sacrifice from earlier seasons. I heard someone say you can’t attain new blessings from old sacrifices. And I believe that to be true. I’m asking God for Elevation in many areas of my life and I believe God is asking for re-dedication from me.

So, I’m choosing to be intentional about my relationship with him. In the words of my sassy friend, people make time for what’s important to them. Therefore, in an open forum, I’m declaring that my God is important to me. I choose to be better not because it’s an obligation, but rather because I want to. I miss the intimacy of my relationship with Jesus. I miss the peace of his presence.

Where are you in your walk with Christ? Are you stagnant or growing? Do you yearn for more? I know Jesus wants more of you and more for you. Will you join me in re-dedication? It’s okay if your method looks different from mine. God has called each of us beautiful ( Song of Solomon 2:10) and He makes our crooked paths straight (Isaiah 45:2)!


Cheers to New seasons and new beginnings. Cheers to grace that has been poured out first in blood and now with Love. Cheers to Jesus, who is ever present even when I don’t give my best. Cheers to The One who is always waiting for me to re-approach his throne boldly (Hebrews 4:16) and whose love endures forever (Psalm 136:26).


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